STFU.

13th.

2010-01-12T00:00:00.000+08:00

Happy 13th Monthsary Honey!

Its been a long journey for us. One hell of a ride. I really enjoyed my time with you, never once regretting anything. To know that you're by my side is enough for me. I may have done alot of stupid things towards you in the past, i hope you could forgive me. No matter what obstacles come our way, i really hope that you could go through it with me. I can't promise you to be the greatest and bestest bf, but i can try to be one. Please be patient with me. I love you.

call to arms.

2009-12-25T20:51:00.004+08:00

There's a little black dark scar tire divide

This is it, can you hear me?

Have you ever felt a sad heart buried alive?

You can do almost anything

There's a little red bridge with the view of the sun

With a lake, I recommend such a setting sight

And the thousands of stars, come out thousands of times

We can go, only if you believe.

Only if you believe.

Do you feel like you've lost everything you can lose?

This is it, can you hear me?

When you cry do your tears ever chill up the room?

Calling out in a moment of need.

Do you ever lay awake with a look in the eye?

Asking God if a wish is too big to deny

I will offer a line, and it's ready for use.

Let me know are you ready for me?

I'd like to say, that you're my only fear

And when I dream, it slowly disappears.

And when I wake, I'm right here by your side...

To feel your heart, beat in and out of time.

When the storm brings rain, snow fate of all kinds

You can feel almost anything.

When the day seems to melt, fall flat into night,

You can feel almost anything.

When you can't go on, you got to get up and try.

This is it, can you feel me?

When the bombs come down, you will make it alive,

But only if you want to believe.

I'd like to say, that you're my only fear.

And when I dream, it slowly disappears.

And when I wake,

I'm right here by your side...

To feel your heart, beat in and out of time.

I'd like to say, that you're my only fear.

And when I dream, it slowly disappears.

And when I wake,

I'm right here by your side...

To feel your heart, beat in and out of time.

God.

2009-11-17T13:29:00.003+08:00

im pretty concerned and sometimes confused about some particular things people say or believe. i may not be a very good person, nor am i religious. me, myself tend to do things that are restricted by my religion, but still in my mind and heart i always think of god. i am what i am, god's creation. and i accept everything given to me. i believe that god exist, i believe that god knows everything that is going on around us.

but what concerns me is the non believers. the free thinkers, agnostic or what shit you're calling yourself. i dont care about the others as long as you're in the same religion as me and yet, youre saying that you dont believe in god, or you have doubts and shits. that is definitely not an excuse. not everyone is good nor religious. but at least have faith in yourself, in god. i dont care what shit your reasons are. you can prove things through scientific shits and still, that cant challenge god's power.

2012, a movie recently released about the end of days? and yeah, so fucking scary but in the end no one dies. what shit? seriously. if god says its the end of our world, then it is the end. no one knows when its happenning. even the most religious person on earth doesnt. but if you think science is everything and it can prove every shit that is happenning, why dont you get a fucking testube and pray to it everyday? scientific fools.

so yeah, thats about it. ive been wanting to let this out a long time ago. so, if there are people who are non believers of god reading this shit, its just a shout out to people who disbelieve, its just my point of view. nothing wrong telling everyone that there are these ind of people out there. fools. who do you think created you? a robot? damn, use your brains for god's sake. till here. im out!

2009-11-15T15:06:00.000+08:00

2009-11-09T15:23:00.000+08:00

asasas.

2009-10-22T20:47:00.002+08:00

honey, i love you just the way you are.

sjdasib.

2009-10-18T22:42:00.000+08:00

went to the gym today. and i miss my baby. and wait, i had shepherd pie. yum. okay bye.

i.

2009-10-09T14:26:00.003+08:00

the one i want to see lying next to me every single fucking day.

:)

2009-10-07T14:51:00.003+08:00

When I’m not talking to you, I’m thinking of you.
When you’re away, I’m hurting inside for you
I miss you.
When I’m talking to you, I’m thinking of us.
When you’re with me I come alive.
I love you.

past and present.

2009-10-07T14:31:00.002+08:00

remember who you were before, not who you are now.

jkdkah.

2009-10-07T14:20:00.003+08:00

life's moving so fast until people's attitude starts to rust. from a non talkative to a fucking argumentative. it's not about standing up and fighting back, it's about showing what you've got. but do you really have anything? chances were given to change for the better yet people change for the worst. i don't see the reason to reason anymore. behind every smile is a fucking lie. remember where you came from, not what you are now.

asds.

2009-10-07T14:10:00.000+08:00

where are you, my friends?

blo.

2009-10-07T13:57:00.002+08:00

i don't even know where to start, it's a fucking long story. and i don't really care.

susah.

2009-10-04T14:55:00.002+08:00

1. respect your friends.
2. respect your friends.
3. respect your friends.
4. respect your friends.

you are nothing without us, so fucking appreciate please. don't be so fucking arrogant. so yeah, beat it.

ma.

2009-09-25T15:01:00.002+08:00

"to see dolphins being trapped and dead, being killed by our own kind. how would you feel to see your family in that way? question yourself. kill the killers, protest against animal abuse."

mmosh.

2009-09-25T14:06:00.001+08:00

twozerozeronine.

2009-09-22T14:50:00.002+08:00

"hari raya aidilfitri."

b.

2009-09-17T17:48:00.002+08:00

"more than anything in this fucking world."

to.

2009-09-17T17:39:00.003+08:00

"i have to be stronger than i've ever been. the only person that i have to prove it to is myself. i will change, it's time to make a difference."

my.

2009-09-14T16:17:00.002+08:00

"stop proclaiming to be something, when you are actually nothing. so, what's the fucking point? you are worthless."

we.

2009-09-14T15:17:00.003+08:00

"if you think god is so cruel, why would he let you live? that means he's not, you are."

n.

2009-09-14T15:13:00.001+08:00

"my reason to live."

boo.

2009-09-14T14:52:00.002+08:00

"overcome and take control. giving up is never an option."

r.

2009-09-14T14:34:00.002+08:00

"follow your heart, not follow the trend."

a.

2009-09-14T14:26:00.003+08:00

"don't torture yourself to be something you can't be, but instead treasure yourself for being something you have always been."

w.

2009-09-14T14:14:00.002+08:00

"heal the fucking world, not ruin it."

free.

2009-09-14T13:46:00.002+08:00

"free your mind, cleanse your soul."

nothing.

2009-09-09T17:39:00.002+08:00

hate?

WHATEVER

unhappy?

COME

unsatisfied?

CONFRONT

don't just fucking talk man, like seriously. im sick and tired la. problems and more problems. im used to this man. no use talking, you dont get anywhere. so yeah, i dont know what these people want. but i promise you, one day we'll meet. and when that happens, you can tell me shit in my face all you want. cause i aint got nothing to lose man. come on, suck on that.

fuckin baybeats.

2009-09-02T13:36:00.003+08:00

okay, i didnt expect that i'd still be blogging till now. and yeah, here i am my 100th something post. haha. i dont even remember. it's the fasting month, and im still standing strong not admitting to the defeat yet, hopefully. ive been great and havent yet broken a single day of fasting. i hope it'll continue that way. haha. pray for me or pray for plagues? okay crap. my weekends was great. finally get to spend time with hunnay and some of my friends which i haven't get to meet for a long time. im happy, are you? haha.

baybeats was awesome. great bands and music. love me butch and the ambassadors was great. i didnt get to catch anberlin but maybe next time. haha. for better endings wasnt that great though. i preferred them before they went mainstream and their song changed from awsome to gruesome. it was so sissy la i had to admit. a critic wont hurt right? but instead i helps you improve. but seriously, their songs changed a whole lot differently. sheesh. no offence guys but you guys definitely agree that they were better before than now.

monday was teachers day and i havent got the chance to get back to secondary school because i woke up late. ahhhhh! i missed my teachers and friends there. im sorry but maybe next year? on tuesday, holiday. went out with hunnay! haha. went to catch a movie, the final destination. m18 okay, not sex scenes but gore grinding scenes. haha. fuck, the effects so real la. sheesh, lucky i dint pee on my pants. ha. you guys should watch it. but i dont really catch any ballz while watching it. like no link. nehmind, just go and watch it then tell me. ha.

after that went to BK to break fast. had a whopper meal, UPSIZED and im definitely full. (talking about this now is definitely making me feel hungry. ahhhh!) okay no. after that spend time with hunnay then head home. definitely had fun. and here i am now, sitting infront of the com waiting for time to pass me by. im going out at 330. ass usual, gym. haha. its like school to me and i dont even wake up early now to head to school even after the umpteen times my gf gives me a call. haha. sorry baby, my bad. too sleepy after watching the movies you gave me and the sahur(pre dawn meal.)

okay guys, thats bout it, have a happy fasting month! try your best to fast for the whole month and shall i salute you! haha. maybe i will, important thing is will power. we will all get our reward by the end of the month, raya! wee! raya ingat, puase tknk. sometimes i just think that i dont deserve to raya. ive been doing sins my entire life. ahhhhhhhh! repent! repent! pray for me to be a good boy! i want to. okay then, see ya'll homies soon. keep it true, as ta la vista baybay!

kimice.

2009-08-22T00:32:00.001+08:00

i swear i find those pictures of your childhood damn funny. haha. btw, this is my friend mussybart and im sorry if i stole your pic but its damn hilarious la. haha. okay, over and out! and happy fasting to all muslims around the world!

love.

2009-08-19T18:26:00.002+08:00

i miss my mum, grandma and grandpa.
i love you very very much. R.I.P.

lucky.

2009-08-19T14:28:00.003+08:00

you are wonderful.

you remind me of a lullaby in winter,

sung like a secret not meant for anyone to know;

but it's a shame, because you're one of the most beautiful songs.

maybe you're fireworks that sparkle and light up the july sky -

but unlike fireworks, you'll keep glowing into forever.

or maybe you’re just you, and that’s more than enough.

i know there's magic in the world. [you're proof.]

sometimes, i think of myself as an empty house,

standing alone and hiding behind lies no one bothers to look past.

locked windows and doors are meant to keep the world away,

but hey:

if i only had one key,

i'd give it to you,

my honey, nisa.

i love you.

8.

2009-08-12T20:04:00.002+08:00

8 months of pure sadness, laughter and joy. i just love you more than anything.

heal.

2009-08-07T15:21:00.003+08:00

There's A Place In Your Heart

And I Know That It Is Love

And This Place Could Be Much

Brighter Than Tomorrow

And If You Really Try

You'll Find There's No Need To Cry

In This Place You'll Feel

There's No Hurt Or Sorrow

There Are Ways To Get There

If You Care Enough For The Living

Make A Little Space Make A Better Place

Heal The World Make It A Better Place

For You And For Me And

The Entire Human Race

There Are People Dying

If You Care Enough For The Living

Make A Better PlaceFor You And For Me

If You Want To Know Why

There's A Love That Cannot Lie

Love Is Strong It Only Cares For

Joyful Giving If We Try We Shall See

In This Bliss We Cannot Feel Fear Or Dread

We Stop Existing And Start Living

Then It Feels That Always

Love's Enough For Us Growing

So Make A Better World

turn.

2009-07-30T13:14:00.002+08:00

life always has its turning point. everyone just has to go through it. every single one of us single minded fools has to go through it. that is just how life is supposed to be. at a certain point of time, you will realise that you are just wasting your fucking life on what you are not supposed to do and what you are supposed to do. feeling me? you just have to accept life as it is. we must learn to embrace it before it swallows us up. look at the rational side of it and then you will realise of how important it is. never look back, thats has always been the problem. looking back. whats there to look back for?

moving on. moving forward. forget the past, you might not know what the future has in store for you. righ? cherish your fucking life, start something new. something you have never tried before. something fresh. you can't just sit back and relax and you expect something great or awesome to happen to you. its all about the effort. its all about trying and more trying, perservere your way through. you will find that it isn't that hard isn't it? you just have to be brave to face incoming challenges of life. may it be bad, hard or how cruel it is. face it with patience. and there you go, life is just as easy as ABC.

TSTJ

2009-07-29T12:15:00.000+08:00

tight shirt, tighter jeans owns la mafucks!

expose'

2009-07-29T11:31:00.004+08:00

the event, EXPOSE! where they showcase great talents in music and fashion. i made great new friends here. oh yeah i did. some cool people, us against sophia, shush!, love lust something.(no offence guys, your name is too long). haha. and some other people too. friendly people. of different ages and different genres. woowee! though there was not many people, every single one of us still enjoyed the day with one anothers jokes and shits apart from the eating session in the end.

great job everyone! especially to fiza and gang for putting up a successful event. not only you gain, we gained too by making new friends. and to us against sophia, we'll exchange our shirt okay? coolness! haha. just wait up! haha. see everyone pretty soon. although we have just met and only get to meet for like a day, i already missed you guys. so, that means see you soon. bye! bye!

brutalasfuck.

2009-07-27T17:37:00.004+08:00

Singapore is a place which needs more brutality. please come down and raise hell here. ruin this fucking place. aahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

drugged.

2009-07-27T14:59:00.003+08:00

think life is short?

make it big you twit.

life isnt't always right.

you've gotta make it.

keep em' drugged up.

oh, i wanna be just like you,

chill yet still the real deal

Peter Doherty.

get well soon.

2009-07-27T12:41:00.002+08:00

i've spend most of my life wandering around the streets, wasting my time slacking and doing things that would land me in trouble. a year ago, i get to know a special person, a girl. to me seems special, but to you may not. a girl who has taught me alot. you have seen these kind of post alot of times right? im not trying to let you readers go, "woah, this guy is sweet." or "man, this is just sweet talks." but. instead i would like you people to know of how fortunate i am.

this girl has helped me to get back on top, ship shape. being a good guy was never a choice for me until she came. the one who always takes care of me whenever im sick, the one who always scolds me whenever im wrong, the one who always kisses me to tell me she loved me. that girl is my gf, nisa. im feeling sad, as she has been sick for the past few days. it makes me feel rather down to see her so weak. it makes me sad to see her sick.

honey, get well soon okay. so that we can spend our time together . spend our time laughing our asses off, pinching and squeezing one anothers cheeks. ive always felt secured around you. i wish that this would never come to an end. i will do anyhting in my power to make this relationship as beautiful as the rainbow. for now, get well soon. i know youre craving for something, shaker fries! hee. we'll eat that tohgether once you're well okay. rest well, eat your medicines and stop being stubborn. i'll pray for your well being. get well soon hun! i love you, yes i do.

exalt.

2009-07-26T19:32:00.002+08:00

i have not been updating for quite a looooooooooooong time. the o's explains that ive not been updating for quite a while. i've been missing out on alot of things. i couldn't even remember when was the last time i saw my other bunch of friends. i've been pretty busy with stuff. school has always been on the top of my priority list, family and so on. school has been great for me, well i guess it was. improved alot than last year. last year i scored 0.4 for my GPA! wtf right? i know. and now, i scored 2.4 for the current term exams and for cumulative i got 1.5. not that great, but to me, i think i did better and im starting to understand the path to success.

i have always thought that studies was not really important or what so ever. to me, all i need was entertainment, fun, freedom and shits. you know what i mean. but now, as i grow older, i start to think wiser. don't believe? better believe it. freedom doesnt lead us anywhere. the key to success is to be disciplined, committment and foocuse. without any of these, theres no way we are going to see the light of our future instead, we are going to see darkness. which pretty much means failure. like duh!

i need to start planning and thinking, that means less slacking more studying. yes, i hope i could make it through. i wanna be a good man in the future. i wanna be a responsible head of family. i dont wanna go around asking for help from my family members or friends. i dont wanna grow up living in the slumps. please god, i wanna be a good guy, i swear i do. ahhhhhh! i dont wanna be a failure in life. i feel as if im one now. no matter what, i'll get back on my feet as quick as possible and mend the problems by myself.

for now, im starting this new thing in life. something i never did before. im trying to live in a healthy lifestyle by going to gym for at least 3 times a week. yes! i did. ive already went to the gym for like 3 weeks now and im starting to feel great! and yay, i think my aunt is going to buy a weight gainer for me. something that helps to gain weight rapidly. but, at the same time, we have to work out or else the muscles will turn to fats. i mean serious business man. i hope to have a beautiful body, maybe in the future. woo! haha.

i have a lot of people to thank to, for always helping me and guiding me in life. teaching me the pros and cons of life. my late mum, the most patient women ive ever seen. the one who taught me patience in life. no matter what the obstacle may be, stay strong and be patient. things will always go smoothly if youre patient. my aunt, the most supportive women ever. the one who has always been supporting me in whatever i do, the one who will always be there in times of failure or success. my late grandmother, the most loving and caring women ever. the one who is always loving me no matter how bad i am. the one who always tells me, " fahmi, please don't go home late okay.", "whose gonna wake you up im when im gone?''. she's my sweetest love, the one who always wakes me up every morning.

my honey, the most lovable and understanding girl ever. the one who will always be there for me. the one who guides me to the right path. the one who tells me never to stop trying and the one who shows me true love which i never knew before. last and not least, the rest of my family and friends who has been constantly supporting me. who has always been there for me in times of need. i love you all, with my deepest gratitude. thank you guys so fucking much. you're the best ever! till here. :)

hurts.

2009-07-14T09:07:00.002+08:00

okay, im in school now and its such a bore. as usual, i slept late for the last 2 days. altogether i have less than 8 hours of sleep for 2 days. im feeling very unwell today apart from feeling tired and sleepy. i dont know why but my body's temperature went up when taking the temperature, 37.2. luckily i wasnt sent home. my head hurts and my body's getting warmer and warmer. i tend to feel like throwing up since yesterday but still i didnt mention it to anyone cause i didnt want anyone to trouble themself for me. since theres not many who knew my blog after i relinked it, i think i'd just express myself here.

no one would care to listen to me anyway. so please, i dont need anyone's concern towards me. im just worthless. all i need is some rest, but nevermind. i still wanna go to school for some reasons. fuck my health, i think i'll just sit right here staring my paper and not show of how im feeling inside, its killing me inside. you'll see me smiling. i hope i get better and well. i hate being sick. this feeling of throwing up sucks big time. okay, till here.

end this fucking life.

R.I.P

2009-07-02T17:17:00.002+08:00

May the king rest in peace. an icon to many, looked up upon. Michael Jackson, to us he is an icon, a king in the music scene. someone who makes a difference. his loss made a great impact on me, us and everyone. may god bless his soul with peace and prosperity. we missed him alot.

different.

2009-07-01T19:31:00.002+08:00

i've been missing out on things lately. the launch in KL went smoothly. i think i have spent most of my time for my band and stuffs and people are starting to feel neglected. and seriously, i need a break from music life. im so busy with the band that i have forgotten some of my role as a brother, son, boyfriend and stuffs. im too caught up. i guess that now with the launch done and gone, i guess its time for life and reality.

i need to spend my time wisely so that i wont neglect my family and girlfriend. i dont ever want them to be neglected. band is a big deal to me but still, my family and girlfriend are as important too. much more important than my band. im sorry if some have felt the neglect-tion if theres any such word. i think there is. i promise i'll plan my time wisely.

for now, i think i shall take a break maybe after this saturday's gig? spend my time with my girlfriend. and school is starting and im so not in the mood for schooling. H1N1 is spreading like fuck. god, please dont let my family and friends be affected by this disease. may this disease be destroyed once and for all.

baby, i promise that we'll get to spend our time together soon. you will have me by your side the whole day. hee. okay, ive got nothing more to update. blank as fuck. okay, see you party heads at the gig this saturday. have fun for the last week of hols. may god bless our wretched souls.

trip.

2009-06-25T12:59:00.004+08:00

we'll be leaving for KL soon. this saturday. im pretty much excited about the trip. well, its my first time there going for a show. i hope everything goes smoothly. at the same time, a little nervous and stuff. pray for our safety. hope that we go and get back here safely. those who are coming, meet at bugis topman by 7. later than 7 then go yourself. haha. see you guys there.

come.

2009-06-20T14:23:00.002+08:00

im seriously not digging this hippie shit. its everywhere now. like someone said, "pakai tie dye je hippies uh?" haha. wtf. irritating fashion stateshit.

demolish.

2009-06-14T15:20:00.004+08:00

first off, thanks to every single one of you living maggots for doing your fucking part in life. for whatever shits you've done may your souls be blessed with hatred in your name. yes, hatred in your fucking name. ever wondered why? you dont deserve to fucking live. you bring sadness into peoples lives, not knowing that you yourself are in need of someone to guide you for. havent you fucking realise? you rely on people, you useless piece of shit. get it? piece of shit. you've been treated like a dog by your own bestest friend as what you called. a friend who leaves you whenever she finds another friend.

secondly, this is in your fucking face. this post really is for someone. not maybe someone but three. you bitches know nothing about life but instead ruining. you said you got problems of your own? well, let me see whens the last fucking time you have one? every single fucking day. you are just problematic as you are. havent you realised? like seriously, you people are giving hope to others and i dont fucking like it. your life is just too sad that you have to include people into your problems and drag them into it. you caused sadness and thats what im about to do with people like you. i hate seeing it, and i hate being in it.

thirdly, i dont fucking care of if youre close to that person. i dont fucking care if shes your friend. if she really is your friend, has she been there for you? for like ever? do you really think your relationship with that person is friendship? you think for your fucking self. a friend has your back at any point of time when you needed her, does she do that? or does she tell you to ever call your life full of love off? fuck it. dont expect me to give you people chances cause you never did give people chances dont you? a swarm of maggots. thats what you are.

fourthly, yes ive been you bestfriend before, been great friends. but you gotta fucking understand. i hate it, im pissed im angry. you havent seen me in any of those forms before so just back off. i dont give a fuck if your boyfriends or friends are a friend of mine. i dont give a fuck what he or she is capable of doing. i dont give a fuck what age he or she is. i dont give a fuck about anything about you, so the next time i hear you try to pull off some shit i swear to god that i'll beat the crap of your guy since icant beat the crap outta you. i swear, i promise i will. i just dont give a fuck, so you better stay back, seal your fucking lips, shut the fuck up. get it?

fifth, i love each and every one of my friends and family. bear this in your small empty minds. i love every one of them. i am very particular if anyone of you shit ass tries to do anything or what so ever shits to them. i really do. this will definitely trigger me off. i swear i'll send you fear down your spinal cords until you wont even dare to look me in the eyes the next time. you motherfucker. never ever think about doing anything cause to me, you are nothing but a piece of small harmless animal to me. you need to be fed, guided and then thrown away. yes you do. so, remind these bitches to mind their business cause this fucking game is very religious. motherfucker.

stay away, far away if possible. you better run, or you'll end up crawling. fuck you.

great.

2009-06-10T09:55:00.003+08:00

opportunity only comes once in life. i mean, you dont live forever dont you? so, just grab whatever lies ahead. not giving shit to anything or anyone. for me, ive learnt alot. from shits to un-shits. ive learnt whatever to forever. for now, im thankful and greatful for everything that has happened. given to me love, and ive given to someone love. throughout the years, love has been the one bringing me down. to some fucking extent, its got me deeply into my heart. tears and shits, laughs and smiles.

now, the future and no longer looking back. i dont give a fuck. for i know, this time i wanna live my life to its fullest. no more looking back on the past, its the fucking present. present means more presents of life. get it? fuck it. im glad that i found you, now i dont give a fuck. you are my eternal light, giving me the strength to move on from whatever. showering me with the heaviest storm of love. i dont give a fuck for all the misunderstandings and arguments as long as i got you.

to know that you're here with me, youre a present that i will never forget. or are you just going to leave like the rest? i hope you wont, cause i believe in you. may you be my last, to be with me through everything in life. you see, love isnt always about presents, money, filth and sex. whatever, love is about sincerity and the willingness to sacrifice for someone. its like you're willing to die for someone. this is love. love knows no boundaries.

dont always count on beauty. trust me, beauty can deceive us all. yeah, who gives a fuck if you're beautiful but eventually you stink? your attitude stinks. for me, i dont mind getting a girl who isnt that pretty, as long as i know that shes good and nice. i know that she wont deceive me and stuffs. hey, grab every chances you get. sitting and waiting doesnt help. thats why im always the impatient type. who doesnt give a fuck about anything. but, i appreciate everything and anything.

thats about it, life is short. be happy, be true. you know who you are, you know what you want. as for me, ive already had and found what i want and need. so, why bother anymore? ive got her and everything set for me. fuck evrything, lets kill everyone in this fucking world. cause i know, you know everything that i know. whatever and shits, i love everyone. lets rule the streets motherfuckers!

man.

2009-06-05T10:54:00.001+08:00

life would just chew you up, and then spit you back out. that would just be my mentality.

shyte.

2009-06-05T10:16:00.004+08:00

okay, firstly i fucking missed the pit yesterday. and im feeling very guilty for not coming. yeah, as for some reasons. im pretty tired and stuff. im sorry guys for not coming. i feel really bad. and yeah, i'll make it up to you guys. thonning outside are just not my thing these days. definitely nothing to do with having a relationship. its just that im just not into thonning anymore. maybe late nights but not thonning. some might know the reasons and some doesnt.

as i and my brother had to take care of my grandfather , who is no longer strong and capable of doing stuffs. we, have to take full responsibility in taking care of him. maybe, only weekends we can thon and stuffs. weekdays are hard as some of my family members are working and theres no one at home. that's my choice. a promise made upon my grandma's death, for which i and my brother will take care of my grandfather. i dont wanna fail doing so. so, that is why i havent been out for quite many times with friends. and if i ever have a chnce, for sure i will hang out with everyone soon.

its tough, but ive tried my best giving time for family, friends and even my honey. whatever, i hope evryone understands my situation. mum's no longer here, i miss her so much. dad's, well, he goes way back. he's in prison. yeah, that's me. my fucking life. drugs and fights landed him in there. and ive made this decision, whereby i wanna be the most responsible adult. to take care of everyone. my friends and family. no matter what situation im in, i'll always stand strong, smiling. never letting anyone see me in defeat. if anyone out there thinks that im away most of the times, not hanging out, doesnt mean i forget you.

some people has their mindset in the wrong way. thinking that their friends are maybe no longer like the past because mainly they have a girlfriend? fuck no. you guys just have to figure out the fucking truth behind it before making assumptions. that's just as bad as backstabbing. some of us just have bigger problems without you people knowing. i'd rather keep them to myself rather than having people feeling sorry for me. that's just who i am. you might see smile on your friend's faces, but you will never know how they feel inside. what are they going through. well, im definitely not referring to anyone. its just a post to make you know and realise. right? so fuck it, i love everyone of my friends.

honestly, my life is meaningless without friends. they made me happy, they cheer me up and make me stronger. fuck it, i just love my frinds and even my family. i'll do whatever, but not whenever. see you guys pretty soon. i promise. thanks to everyone who has always been by my side for years and years. thanks for fucking understand. and lastly, happy birthday to my beloved friend, alfee. though our frindship just started last year, i hope it continues to go strong and may our friendship last long. i love you very much! sorry for not coming for your birthday! but hey, be happy always bitch! love you!

here it goes, i'll always have your back, even if you dont hae my back. my principles are simple, everyone is my friends, even if you hate me or not. in the end, i dont fucking gain nor i fucking lose.

fight.

2009-06-02T13:39:00.002+08:00

i think i might be beat,
i watch my blood hit the ground.
it's only been one ground,
beatdown and broken.
you can break my bones,
but you will never get a word outta me.
this is my life, my way.
this is me, fight for your life.
i am who i am, what i am.
that's nothing you can be.
so, dont fucking tell me what to do.
you're not my fucking judge.
that's who i am motherfucker.

stand.

2009-06-02T12:32:00.003+08:00

if an injury has to be done to a man,
it should be done so severe that his
vengeance need not be feared.
to what fucking extent of violence
may he be inflicted upon so that
he realised and bring back the day
with him as a fucking memory.
the only way to solutions are,
violence, bloodshed to redeem your
pride and intergrity of those who
has stolen from us, our stand.
making them days outnumbered,
fearing themselves of what's to come.
let us stand out among the rest,
be feared and respected rather than
being pushed and kicked upon.
its our turn, our fucking war.
its time to stop these people from
bringing us down and no one can stop us.
have your fucking faith and pride.
believe in your fucking self.
never ever let anyone, any scum
bring us down, cause this is the time.
our time to rise against those who
conquered. fuck them, stand fucking strong.

crappy.

2009-06-01T12:13:00.002+08:00

my neck hurts. due to headbanging.
yeah, i always try to give my best.
no pain, no gain right? who cares.
i fucking love myself, what i do.
still, who fucking cares? i do.

sushi.

2009-05-26T11:57:00.002+08:00

im feeling a little bit better except for this morning that i had a fever. wtf. was too weak to do stuffs. woke up as early as 7 just to accompany honey on the phone since i didnt get to go to school with her today. eventhough i was sick and weak i still wanted to accompany her on her journey to school. she kept asking me to go to sleep but i refused. haha. okay, as soon as she reached class she asked me to sleep. and yeah, i did eventually. my heads killing me and my nose is running like a water pipe.

so, here i am. i just bloody woke up. updating my blog while texting my honey. she's in school having break and im at home infront of the stupid lappy. im hungry and theres no food for me to munch on. can someone please send me food to my house? haha. need to wait for honey to end school. she's ending at 3. supposedy 430 but she refused to go to PE. haha. i wanted to fetch her at her school but she didnt want me to. she said that she'll be meeting me near my house as im sick. sweet or what? iloveyou.

still got jamming session at night. 6 to 8. im sick but still im going jamming. idky. i think i'd just go eventhough if im not feeling well. we need to complete our last and final song for the EP. im scared if things dont go well for the EP. we're definitely rushing like fuck. corefest this sat and sun. im really going to worked out. hope i get well soon so that i could perform well. pray for me guys. im still waiting for the clock to strike 3 so that i can meet my honey. end sooon. i need you here. hehe. that's all for today guys. see everyone at corefest yeah! stay true.

glory.

2009-05-25T18:41:00.002+08:00

currently having flu. wtf.
lazy to do anything. nothing to update about.
wait up for my next post. seriously blank. haha.
okay, i'll update a proper one soon. see ya.

pride and glory.

abuse.

2009-05-21T21:10:00.002+08:00

do you even have brains? do you even have feelings? don't you ever feel guilty? aren't you afraid of dying? you useless piece of shit. faggot. motherfucker. im ashamed that you're just the same race and religion as me. im very ashamed. and i bet the others would feel the same way too. your actions are stupid. don't you ever think? or even consider how other people might feel?

i read an article yesterday, about this fucker who killed his own fucking son-to-be. selfish and indespicable motherfucker. for a reason that's not worth his fucking actions. a guy with no dignity and brains. fuck you. this guy is a shame to us, muslims, malay. a disgrace to the fucking community and country. what kind of person would abuse an innocent child whose only crying? use your fucking brains please. listen to your heart not your fucking foot!

you disgust me! how could you? a person like you should be thrown into a hole full of red ants. eaten and bitten alive. by then, you would realise of what you have done was totally wrong. what were you thinking? killing an innocent soul? was it really worth it? does it make you happy? no! instead, it lands your fucking ass in jail. fuck you!

what has this poor boy done to you? thats what i want to know. what has he done? dont you ever think? fucker. sentenced to 7 years and 12 strokes. is it enough? no its not. i dont think so. this guy should be hanged to death or maybe put through an electric chair. may god bless your fucking soul. i hope you die in a few weeks or maybe days. you deserve to die.

God, please put an end to this. an end to suffering. an end to misery. i beg of you. kill these people who brought digrace and shame to everyone. fuck him. he dont deserve to live. i hope you rot in jail! fuck you!

dear.

2009-05-18T19:37:00.003+08:00

dear you,

I want to be there for you when you fall, when you finally shatter into thousands of sparkling pieces, slivers of stained glass. I want to be there to glue you back together, to let your sharp words and jagged thoughts pierce into my flesh like daggers, ripping into the pads of my fingertips and drawing blood with every piece of you I reattach. you’d be beautiful even if you were broken.

dear you,

you’re worth the pain. I love you.

woo.

2009-05-18T19:07:00.003+08:00

do really know when will the world end? of whats going to happen next? well, im sure you dont and you wouldnt want to know but if you do, i bet you would be pretty scared. i have always thought life was a circle pit. everything was going to go on round and round. always thought that it would be great to live in the rich and famous, dreams of mine that would never happened.

life is actually cruel, living in the darkest alley is much better than living in a world of hate and discrimination. to know that you're so fucking great, knowing that no one hates your fucking self. i dont really understand of why hate should exist in this not-going-to-be-forever life. you know that you're not going to live forever, then why hate?

questions after questions yet still no answer. ive yet to find peace in this world where people honours people. where tragedies dont happen. where life is great without worries and hate. many indescent and stupid acts happening around us. without us noticing, we should do something about it. knowing that we are a part of this.

animal cruelty, animal abuse, rapes, tortures, racial boundaries, religions hatred. these are some of the fucking problems, of the fucking things that are happening around. around us. why dont we do anything? this is definitely an issue. it may not be to you, but it is to me. it really is. i really need to speak this out, of what i felt about this whole fucking situation. whats the point of freedom of speech? when you dont really speak out?

i know im not someone who can fulfil what i say, but i believe that i can make a difference. maybe not so much of a big difference, but still, it is a difference. yeah. ive always thought that living and thinking positively is a healthy lifestyle for me, maybe not to you, but it is to me. so yeah, thats about it. circle pit of death!

oh.

2009-05-11T20:49:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 5 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY HONEY!

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing

Watch you smile while you are sleeping

While you're far away dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender

I could stay lost in this moment forever

Every moment spent with you is a moment

I treasure

Don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to fall asleep

Cause I'd miss you baby

And I don't want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you

The sweetest dream will never do

I'd still miss you baby

And I don't want to miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating

And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing

Then I kiss your eyes

And thank God we're together

I just want to stay with you in this moment forever

Forever and ever

Don't want to close my eyes

I don't want to fall asleep

Cause I'd miss you baby

And I don't want to miss a thing

Cause even when I dream of you

The sweetest dream will never do

I'd still miss you baby

And I don't want to miss a thing

I don't want to miss one smile

I don't want to miss one kiss

I just want to be with you

Right here with you, just like this

I just want to hold you close

Feel your heart so close to mine

And just stay here in this moment

For all the rest of time

THE LYRICS EXPLAINS IT ALL. MORE THAN WORDS.

mum.

2009-05-11T16:26:00.008+08:00

every single day of my life, i think and mourn for you. every single breath that i take i think of how are you. i still deny the fact that you are no longer here with us, on a special day for mothers all around the world. i kept thinking of the past that we used to spend together as one, the hardships you went through to bring us up and the problems we had done.

i really wish that you were here, to wake me up from my sleep. to kiss my forehead and make me drown into my sweetest dreams of all. i may have done alot of sins to you, but i have not forgotten of what you have done for us all, forever will you be remembered. im sorry for what ever ive done. you are truly a women of strength, a women of will a women of patience i shall say. against all odds you never failed and say that you lost the war.

to the greatest mum of all, is my mum. the most patient and strong. a mum who knew that giving up is never a choice. the only way to succeed and overcome obstacles is by trying and perservere. i really really missed you mum. we all missed you so much. sometimes i wish that you'd never leave. no matter what, i'll always try my best. to live by your motto of not giving up.

you are the most wonderful, the most greatest mum in the entire world, i love you very very much. forever will be remembered and cherished in our hearts. "you raised me up, so i can stand on mountains. you raised me up, to walk on stormy seas." i will forever protect our family's pride and glory for i love you so much, and only you. a happy mothers day mum! i really miss you! hope you're doing fine there. i love you.

skipped.

2009-05-11T15:32:00.005+08:00

hello fellow earthlings. sup? okay, today is a very tiring and exhausting day. yeah, woke up as early as 630(mcm biase jgk nisa call), to get ready for school. i thought today holiday sia. wtf. lazy want go school. like wth. supposedly they should let us ITE students holiday too. argh! nehmind. okay, meet girlfriend at marsiling mrt as usual. then went to send her off to school. okay, as usual send her off to bishan ITE gate. haha. sweet tak? lol.

today, we planned to 'cabot'. haha. which means skip school. too lazy to go. haha. so, planned to go ITE ang mo kio. so, waited for faiz and kiki to arrive. wait so long. i called kiki and he said he just boarded the train. so, i took the train from bishan and went to khatib to wait for them so that we can go together. -_- pathetic right? haha.

took the train which they boarded and off to yio chu kang. haha. reached there and we saw alot of people going to school. haha. and yes, we're the only ones skipping. fuck. and not to mention, mussybart also wanted to cabot. he said, "sial la faiz, asl kau bilang aku!" haha. funny. thats what faiz told me. and yeah, still have to wait for him. ass. he reached around 15 minutes? haha. and yeah, saw alot of "bapok-faced girls.'' haha. but they are practically genuine girls. only that they look like bapoks. lol.

still have to wait for the bus. so fucking long. saw many familiar faces. old friends. faiz(other faiz). haha. and some others. its been a while since i met him. and yeah, we chatted quite a bit in the bus since we havent been talking for so long. haha. finally, reached ITE ang mo kio. at last and the school fucking corrupted la. no offence people of ITE amk. lol. corrupted like fuck sia. haha. went in, lepak canteen. suddenly mussybart wanna go to the toilet as he has stomach ache. wth. we had to accompany him to the toilet and its at the 3rd level? wtf.

met up with the rest, faiz, danny and iskandar. accompanied muss to berak. lol. so fucking long and believe me, stinks like fuck. haha. they were smoking when the school's ''dog'' came barking. lol. everyone rushed to get away. haha. funny sia. hahah. especially danny, ran like a pussy. wth sia he. after muss finished, we headed to the canteen to eat as we were so hungry. met up with afiq and we chatted quite a bit. cute sia he eat using hands. anak melayu la katekan. hahah. funny sia. chit chat forever pasal music. haha.

okay, after that, went to lepak somewhere near i connect. a square table. and we saw this guy like voguelicious or something. haha. lembut giler like fuck. annoying sia. haha. waited again for faiz and the rest as they went to class. wth. few minutes later epul and an met up with us to lepak. bebual konek. they talked about this girl whose name is eton. HAHA! kampung sia the name. nonsense. then they keep disturbing her espeially muss. suke kacacu org. and an kept complaining about hungry. haha. after the rest came, we went to the canteen to disturb this guy step hot waidi or something. haha. what a pity.

shall not elaborate more, too long la sial. after that we lepak at toilet there, they smoked like fuck and yeah, after 3 weeks of not smoking, i smoked! fuck! i feel bad la. haiyo. okay, thanks guys for making my boring day today into a wonderful one, faiz, kiki, danny, afiq, iskandar, mussybart, an and epul. haha. if not, my day at ITE amk is gonna be a boring one. haha! okay, sorry for breaking my promise of quitting smoking, i just cant take it. the headache, flu and non stop dizzy-ness. haha. wtf. im sure i'll quit soon! woo! okay, im at starbucks now, sorry, i dont think i detest starbucks that much now. haha. sorry eh mussybart! haha. im chilled. okay, till here. bye!

Wheellock.

2009-05-08T23:30:00.000+08:00

where?

2009-05-07T15:13:00.002+08:00

where are we now? hoping that you could understand but obviously you dont. yeah, like duh. i really hope that people could fucking understand my fucking situation. bitch please. you're just wasting your ass off. wtf are you trying to prove? are you trying to pull my friends away by saying all those shits? regarding yourself as a great friend to me but no, obviously you dont fucking understand me. so stop pushing things over the edge.

fuck you man. i thought you were different, a great friend whom i could rely on. but NO, youre not. wtf? you gotta understand my fucking situation. please. OMG. what are you thinking? i guess you're just the same like the rest. have you ever thought what i've done for you? i was always there. remember? but now, things changed. people change, situation's changed. please fucking understand.

i didnt know that you'd turn out so bitchy and shits. you're just the typical kinda person. i guess you're just the same as minah? do you think so? well i know so. you're just so spoilt and stuff you know. hey, open your fucking eyes. you already got him what more do you want? what else? im fucking disappointed in you and so am i surprised by your actions. why? man, all you gotta do is understand. stop stating shits on the cyberworld cause it wont affect me.

you're pissing me off by your actions. well, you just lost everything babe. yeah, you just lost. you're done. stop these shits. you're spitting shits that could stir up people's feelings. seriously. i just dont fucking understand what you're trying to convey here. you got everything, love, money, friends and shits. well, heres a tip. treasure them not toying around with them. you know me, and i just cant stand bitching. i can be your bestest friend and so can i be your worst friend. you make the pick.

i am fucking done and over this. so, if you've got something to say, you better make it simple and nice. the reason of not informing of the change was because you're just a completely different person. a person whom i dont know know. where's the old you? you used to understand. times can be like before cause you fucking know im attached. you're treating this whole shit like im having a serious relationship with you when i dont. stop it. its so fucking annoying and attention seeking. you think you got what it takes? spit it. say it to my face. cause you dont matter no more just like you said how i dont matter.

im real sorry about the harsness that was exploited here. but seriously, anyone in my shoe would be fired up too. think of what youve done. whether its right or wrong. im really sorry. things changed and people changed. you're a fucking disappointment. seriously. remember, treasure your friends, your family. theyre all you have left. take care.

true.

2009-05-05T19:15:00.002+08:00

my goals in life are...

1. to study hard and go to higher nitec, then to poly and university if god's willing.

2. to find a stable job, make money to support my family.

3. to quit smoking. which im still on the process now.

4. to go on a tour with my bandmates maybe starting with SEA.

5. to probably get signed by a recording label or something.

6. to take care of my family when i grow up.

7. to be a successful designer, musician and a responsible person.

8. to always be there for my family(girlfriend).

9. to be all of the above and if god's willing, maybe i'll succeed.

there are many more which i would want to achieve in life. many more things which i think that i should achieve. cause i believe in myself that i can do it. for i know that im the only one who can achieve my dreams, make my dreams come true. to be a better person in the future. maybe, i could make a difference for the world and people around me. to be a role model. someone whom people would look up to in the future. its time for a change and i know that i can make it, i can get through this.

i just have to think positively. set my goals, and make sure that i achieve them all. whatever obstacles. i have to go through with patience. cause, that's the only way to succeed. i know that no one can stop me from achieveing and doing what i want. fuck it. this is my life. and thanks to those who have helped me, family(girlfriend), friends and some others. i sure owe you guys.

stay true to yourself. fuck what they say, its your life.

watch me.

2009-05-05T19:11:00.002+08:00

a breaking in spirit, a breaking in promise, a breaking in me
how can i find the peace inside me, in a world i can see....
thats taking and taking all for ourselves, taking and taking
and its dragging me down, deeper and deeper
watch me sink like a stone.....
in a sea of selfishness,
where "me" is more and "you" is less

the vanity, it becomes insanity.
we eat the shit that's fed to us.
we stomach it, and we embellish it,
and we confuse our love with lust.
.....cant we find another way?
the way that goes against the grain.
Abstain, The Grain.
abstain, abstain, abstain, abstain
THE GRAIN

the ugliness, licentiousness, the love that is just skin deep......please get me out
before i become just a memory of what i used to be.....get me the fuck out

we're deaf and blind to a age's cry....
we refuse to fucking hear.
not learning to grow, just losing the one
i used to see in the fucking mirror

the egoists, the narcissists....the shallow waters wade in.....please get me out
before i become just a memory of what i used to be.....get me the fuck OUT

"of a world thats doing its best, night and day, to make me(you)

everybody else"-e.e. cummings
........hell.
please take me out...
of a world without any heart
take me out...
when they see my hope and rip it apart
take me out....
of a world we built to serve our selfish-fucking-selves, can you tell me....
where does love fit in?
remember what true love is?

donuts.

2009-05-04T18:29:00.002+08:00

you made my life wonderful

as beautiful as the rainbow

you made my life splendid

as cool as the ice and snow

never have i felt so important

since the day you hugged me

never have i felt loved

since the day you kissed

to be with you is all i had in mind

so what would you say dear?

to hold you tight is all i ever want

please take my hand baby.

oh. i love you.

life.

2009-05-02T15:39:00.003+08:00

hey ho lets go. im feeling better now, feeling grrrrreat! yeah. my throats better, no more fever. im good now. haha. jyeah! ive promised you guys a proper update and here it is. been fucking busy. very busy with school cause tests and exams are near. loads of reports to do. wtfish. god, please help me on this. need to manage my time wisely. i got around 2 more weeks to finish up on my report since my project is done. jyeah!

okay, school has been great. everythings good. been well. oh ya, i have this stop smoking workshop last thursday. wtf? haha. i was caught smoking before the holidays and yeah, i have to do some stop smoking workshop thingy. haha. god. alot of people got caught. wth. counselling was from 1230 to 2? wow. so long. but yeah, i think its worth the talk.

i think that ive come to a point in life where ive decided to do something for myself. do something positive? do something that is good for me and those around me? man, the workshop really helped me to stop smoking. i think that i seriously need to stop smoking and stop damaging my health. life's not worth smoking and damaging yourself. yeah. like seriously. the workshop really helped me to open my eyes and made me see to what dangers that i could experience if i continued smoking.

im very happy with myself, i've finally decided to do this. to quit smoking and shits. if i dont, only god knows how long im gonna live on this earth. that workshop is seriously helping. woo! 3 more sessions to go! wooooo! hahah. okay, i'v already watched friday the 13th! super awesome minus the porn parts. wtf. hahah. the most awesome thriller ever sia! next up, angels and demons. i think its gonna be nice cause the trailer seems good. hahah.

went out with gf yesterday. went to sungei rd then off to town since i always complained of how long i have not been to fareast. hahaha. walked around town then went to heeren. okay, this part is seriously making me mad. haha. went to flash and splash, i went to look for stuff when i saw this cap. so fucking nice! volcom. dope giler la sial! hahah. i wanted to buy it but not enough money. haha. nevermin that part but then, gf took the cap and paid for it. WTF? she insisted that the cap was my belated birthday present. WTF AGAIN?

hahah. seriously, you dont have to waste your money to get stuffs for me. i just dont like it if my gf treats me and stuff. it can make me go mad. hahahah. so honey, please dont do that again. hahah. nehmind, you just wait. hahah. im sure i'll get something for you cause i already have something in mind. btw hun, thanks for the cap. i loved it alot. thanks for wasting your money okay? haha. i love you very much! wooO!

here i am sitting infront of the lappy, so fucking bored. waiting for gf to text me so that i can go out and meet her under her block. she just came back from expo. bought a lappy. wooo! confirm action sia later. wth. hahah. good for her so that now she doesnt have to share with her sister. hahah. going out with gf again today. not sure yet of where to go. i'll think of a place later. for now, i need to get ready. i miss all my friends now. hope to see you guys soon okay? i miss you guys fucking much!

till here, fuck this fuck that. fuck what you say, you aint got what we got. suck them balls and kiss them ass. stay positive friends.

Flyer.

2009-05-02T00:13:00.000+08:00

Do inform me if you wanna go.

I need to confirm how many people are going with us because we need to book a bus.

Anything just contact me through myspace/handphone. Thanks. K bye.

argh.

2009-04-30T21:14:00.003+08:00

im currently sick. not feeling well. been very busy. throat hurts like fuck. damn it. i cant even swallow my own saliva properly. i promise i'll update a proper one soon. for now, just pray for me that i'll get well soon okay? please. i really miss my friends. see you guys soon. and honey, ilyvm. :) bye.

P.S. dont even try to bring us down, cause you will never succeed. you people are just a bunch of cum swallowing faggots. fuck you.

bleah.

2009-04-22T20:57:00.003+08:00

i want to stare into your eyes.
everyday of my life not even
getting bored or tired of seeing
you infront of me day after day.

i shall wrap my arms around you,
to keep you warm and comfortable.
making you feel safe in my arms
and never want me to let you go.

whisper deep into my ears softly,
tell me of the wonders you've had
whenever you're with me baby.
tell me softly, that you want me.

i love the way you touch my hands,
i love the way you kiss my cheeks.
the way you say you love me badly
and never want me to ever go.

for you my dear im willing to try,
whatever it takes even if i have to cry,
to make your days a beautiful one,
yet a sweet and memorable ride.

i'll try my best to make this work,
i wont disappoint you my dearest love.
to make you happy out of your blues,
i wont stop saying that i love you.

please.

2009-04-22T20:10:00.005+08:00

why cant everyone live in peace?
why not? why the unhappiness? why the rage?
live in democracy? live happy? live in hatred?
why? bombs, explosions, death, fuck,
destruction, killings, rape, molestations,
abuse, riots, race riots, hate, anger.
too much to list cause everyday humans
just hate one another, backstabbing,
criticizing, discriminating, hating, fighting,
hurting, killing, damaging, corrupting
and all that kinda shits fuck you.
don't you fucking realise? the earth, the world
is getting older and older and soon its gone.
why cant live in harmony? god loves
people who loves one another. why?
we're all gods creations. given the chance
to live life, to walk, talk, smile, laugh and all.
given to you hands, legs, brain, eyes, nose and mouth.
what do you use them for? harm? damage? corruption?
is it really worth living in hate and anger?
is it really worth living in discrimination?
is it really worth living in the eyes of a killer?
stabbing people in the back, is just the same
as murdering someone right? wtf guys.
living in peace is just plain easy as 12345.
learn to love, learn to appreciate, learn to respect.
does it make you happy to see people getting hurt?
does it make you happy seeing people cry in tears?
does it make you happy to see people being hated?
does it make you happy that you're a part of it?
a part of this fucking shit? what have you gotta prove?
it all comes back to you in the end, seriously .
everyone is a part of this. everyone is.
there is no point hating, fighting, killing
as you know that one day you will die and rot.
just like everyone else, everyone dies. you die.
so whats the point? you can hate all you want,
you can kill all you want, you can fight or discriminate
all you want cause when the time comes, you lose.
you lose everything. you think people gonna help you?
no they wont. im sure they wont. cause you would just
fade away slowly just like when sugar dissolves into water.
create. peace. love. friendship. family. not war. fights. chaos.
riots. fights. hate. death. destruction. filth. greed.
you're living in a democratic society bitch. stop selling
and corrupting peoples minds with your political bullshits.
it doesnt work, cause in my dicionary, you shits dont exist.

dead.

2009-04-08T15:18:00.005+08:00

war? destruction? chaos? riots?

the conclusion? the point? what?

whats the fucking point? why?

everywhere, everyday. death.

because? power and control.

innocent lives. dead because?

fight for whats not, your rights.

my fucking point? hate? anger?

why pissed? any better? changes?

happy? your life but their end?

prove yours, whats good? why?

final conclusion? peace? no war?

you do yours, and i'll do mine.

everyone has one. do it right.

God, bless our souls with peace.

let's do our part to bring peace.

pissed.

2009-04-06T12:18:00.004+08:00

im damn pissed. yeah, i am. im still searching, not giving up. yeah, i swear to god, i swear upon my mothers grave, that i will find you. i will fucking hunt you down. god, please lead me to this motherfucker, yeah. i want a piece of him/her. i definitely cant tolerate with people who fucking says anything about my mum. you disgust me. you despise me. im pissed. im fucked up.

whoever you are, you tagged me, you are trying to find trouble i guess. for i know, that i have no enemies. im ashamed by your actions. a low life piece of coward. i know you're one of those, who thinks that you're so fucking proud of your scene. if you are, if you consider yourself one of those who has pride and glory for yours, why dont you fucking show yourself instead of hiding?

you're just afraid. maybe i know you? im not sure. you are just a piece of coward.why hide? show yourself. maybe one day, i'll bump into you. and i wont hesitate to fuck you. i swear i wont hesitate. i swear i will, i will make you swallow your words. i'll make you regret for what you say. i fucking swear to god. to tag name, mak kau, if you think you're so tough, show your fucking self. this may not be a big deal to you, but it is to me. you mentioned my mum, and i swear thatim gonna make you crawl back to your mothers womb.

if you think you're some big shot, show me. if you wanna go, im ready to go. dont go fucking throw shits at me. i am so hoping that i know who you are and by then, i fucking swear that im gonna make you swallow your words. if you got pride, show yourself. cause in the first place, you're the one who wants trouble, not me. if you think thats your fucking pride, you're just a disgust to your scene.

you might as well go join some cheap gang. fuck you. yeah, walk away while you can, cause i swear i'll meet you one day. and that one day, is getting near. i swear to god, i swear upon my mother's grave. when i see you, you better say sorry or i'll fuck you.

stay away, fuck off.

Private.

2009-04-05T20:16:00.001+08:00

I have my own reasons as to why i kept this blog private. So don't ask. Will update again, soon!

pop.

2009-04-03T14:25:00.006+08:00

hey earthlings. sup? haha. okay, i just came back from the salon. i just cut my hair short eventhough its already quite short. haha. wth. i hate it when its long, cause its like very curly whirly like wtf. haha. not to mention, its Azri's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY AZRI! may all your wishes come true and may you be happy always. And to Rara, HAPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAY!

okay, yesterday i went swimming! with girlfriend at the jurong east swimming complex. actually, we're supposed to jog in the morning at 730? haha. but girlfriend didnt want to cause i didn't sleep the whole night due to exploring at sembawang park. and she knows that im gonna be tired and all. so sweet! hehe. aku sayang kamu, bodoh! haha.

yeah, met her ard 10? and off we went. had a great time. i had fun with girlfriend around. that is like the first time i went swimming with my girlfriend. haha. it was one of the most memorable days of my life. hehe. everytime we do things together, i can feel that im loved even more than before. i feel secured and stuffs. i just simply love you. i had a splashing good time!

after swimming, we went to jurong point to eat cause we were damn starving. very hungry, didnt have a proper meal for breakfast. i only ate like 1 and a half curry puff which i shared with girlfriend? haha. wtf. we had our lunch at banquet. both of us ordered the same food. chicken cutlet noodle. yummy! hehe. so nice. after eating, we walked around jurong point. window shopping. jurong point is getting bigger and nicer. haha.

we're getting tired and decided to go home. took 187 and off we go. after we sat down, i dozed off in an instant, with my head on girlfriend's shoulder. she wrapped her arms around me to prevent me from falling off my seat. so sweeeeet! syg kamu! upon reaching girlfriend's bustop, girlfriend said to me to just alight at woodlands as she knew that i was super tired and sleepy cause i only had an hour of sleep? wth. haha. so yeah, we continued our bus ride to woodlands.

when we reached woodlands, we strolled around for a while. bought her mum and sis some food and then off we go back to girlfriend's crib. it took like 30 mins to reach. and after that im having jamming. so, finally, reached her crib, sent her off. kissed her goodbye and off we go our seperate ways. haha. i still have to go to bugis to jam. wtfish! haha. im already super tired plus sleepy.

i shall not elaborate more. okay, i had fun yesterday. jamming session went well now with our old guitarist back, taufik. haha. the new songs ready for recording so, stay tuned guys. hehe. cant wait to record. girlfriend, i had a great time with you. i love you very very much! wee! haha. okay then, see you guys on the next post. im getting ready to go out to fetch girlfriend. bye!

we'll fly around the world,

and be on top of everyone,

we'll watch the stars every night,

we'll fly around the world,

and make it a memory,

so we can share it with everyone.

you're my heart, and my soul,

you're my beautiful.

please take me with you,

wherever you go, wherever ever you go.

i love you, honey.

cowards.

2009-04-01T11:19:00.006+08:00

gangsters? bullies? define them please. cause i seriously need to fucking figure this shit out. i just dont fucking understand these kinda people. yeah, like seriously. a group of people, who declared themselves gangsters, who thinks that they are so much of a big deal but actually they are not. they are almost everywhere around the world, your neighbourhood, streets. they are pretty much like parasites. in fact, they are much more worst than a parasite.

do you think that you're so fucking of a big deal? to you, you people might think that you're an icon. but you're just a low class no life piece of shit whose trying so hard to get our fucking attention. im so fucking pissed looking at these kinda people. everyday and every night i see these kinda people, on the streets. walking with their so called fucking pride on their chests showing off what they got when they actually have nothing.

many as young as 13? who are you kidding man? you're just a fucking small fry. believe me, you're just a fucking nuisance to the community. do you seriously think that you're a big fuck? big deal? a somebody? you're just making us look down on you, laughing our ass off. you walk around, staring and finding trouble towards innocent people, civilians who know nothing. you're just being stupid. if you think that you're so tough, why dont you mess around with the fucking authorities? useless piece of shit.

think again, they are just like us. the difference between us and these scumbags is just that they think that they're so fucking tough when they're not. they may have alot of so called "back-ups", but we have guts. we have brains and we know what is right and wrong. right? so, the next time you see this kinda people/parasites, just look down, ignore. doesnt mean that we keep quiet we're afraid. we're not, but actually we're acting smart. we know that we can beat them. they are actually a bunch of cowards who walk in groups and finds trouble.

yeah, its all true. they're just plain cowards. why be afraid? be smart. be positive, stand up. speak out. everyone has the rights. they're just nothing to us but a piece of shit. useless shit. i believe that no one is greater, tougher and smarter than anyone. everyone is the same. always stand up, and only fight for your rights, not fight for trouble.

N.

2009-03-31T20:19:00.004+08:00

i have sworn and given up half of my life for you. for i know, i really adore you, and i really need you. you are the light of my life. honey is starting school pretty soon. 13th april. yeah, she's a first year, higher nitec student in events management. woah, she's one smart ass. haha. accompanied her this morning to her school to register and buy some school stuff with her.

okay, i woke up as early as 1030. early? haha. met her under my block at around 11 plus? and off we go to her campus. reached there ard 12? i guess. not many people around. bumped into some of my friends there. haha. registered at the office, took her ez link photo and off we go to the hall to get her uniform. hee. uniform sucks this year. like wtf. eeee! ugly! no offence honey!

for a moment there, i felt worried, sad and happy? haha. funny. mixed feelings. why? im worried for honey as shes going to a new school. new friends, new people and new scumbags. haha. the sad part is that im scared that anything might happen to her as im not around to be beside her all the time. im scared that these mother fucking no life son of a bitches fucking psycho her and shits you know. thats how worried i am.

i know that i have to trust and believe her, but still? shit happens and i dont wanna fucking go through the same cycle like before. i care for her and all you know. she's my bestfriend, my mum, my dad, my counsellor and everything. she's my everything and if anything were to happen to her, or anyone dares to fucking pull off some shit to her, i swear im gonna fucking peel your skin off your bones. thats how much i love and care for her.

honey, take good care of yourself okay? you know i care for you, you know i love you. so, you fucking scumbags who thinks that you're so fucking hot tries to fucking bother her, better think twice. the next time i see you, you're dead! you're dead! i dont just speak, but i do what i say. Fuck you, fuck you and fuck you.

honey.

2009-03-30T12:14:00.002+08:00

you're the sweetest thing i ever had.

please shower me with all you love,

you're the greatest girl i ever met,

lets fly away to the clouds above.

i love you, honey.

sick.

2009-03-30T11:51:00.002+08:00

okay, its been like a few days or maybe weeks since i last blogged. and yeah, here i am. ive been busy and stuff, and i dont have time to blog and shits. okay, to start off, my hols are great. its been awesomely great. been spending most of my time with girlfriend. everyday and every night. thanks for always making my day a sweet one.

i have not been going to gigs lately. maybe because of too much girlfriend? ive been missing out on great gigs nowadays. nevermind, maybe its time for a change. oh ya, on the 4th april got this gig. a good one. hee. at fads. do come down. many great bands. i think im coming down myself. should be. if not, that means im busy with girlfriend.

ive been thinking alot lately. about my life, love and more shits. yeah. its time that i make a change in life, to be a better person. i wanna be that guy whose always there for my friends and family. guess what? ive finally given up my septum. its closed now. its like a birthday present to girlfriend since i dont have enough money to buy her one.

im still waiting for the clock to strike 3 so that i can go bathe and fetch girlfriend after work. im so bored and hungry. girlfriend has been sick for like 3 days now. wtf. i wanna send her to the doc but she refuses. stubborn! haha. do you know how worried i am. sheesh. nvm, at least she know how to take care of herself. i love you so much. get well soon okay hun? i'll always pray for your wellness.

till here then, always be positive. fuck this animal testings and shits. fuck you. may god bless you.

Image heavy!

2009-03-25T23:11:00.000+08:00

Pictures taken by Ira on live and loaded. Enjoy!

live.

2009-03-25T13:22:00.004+08:00

i just bloody woke up, and straight to the lappy and blogging. how cool is that? haha. was totally tired due to yesterday's live and loaded live recording. wee. haha. it was super super fun, happening and that was the first time i went to live and loaded. it was soooooooo fun! happy x 100. here is how it goes.

okay, met up with gf at town at ard 530? yeah, then went to ljs first cause she said that she was hungry. haha. so cute. okay, after going to ljs, we headed for toa payoh to meet the rest. yeah, we reached toa payoh and no one was there except for sasa, ira and jason? where the hell is everyone? haha. as usual. they are late. i pity gf cause she has to eat standing up. sorry!

okay, found out that mussybart and erwin was outside the control station, so, we went to meet them. they were smoking. haha. a few minutes later, nerd and azimah arrived, with their blurry faces. haha. after taking a few puffs of the ciggy, we went back in and waited. a few minutes later, faris and the gang arrived. wth, so long, still got azri and the others to wait for.

everyone started complaining. haha. complain and more complain. complain again, and again. haha. so long, then like a few minutes later they arrive smiling and showing their innocent faces. hahah. okay, off to mediacorp. took 157 and they didnt know where to stop? haha. wth. luckily we stopped at the right stop. sotong sia.

the others were already at mediacorp, sitting, smoking and shits. still got few more to wait for and i swear that they are fucking late. haha. we waited like half an hour more. darn. okay, everyone was getting pretty excited. haha. when the rest arrived evryone gushed in.yay! get ready for live and loaded.

reached inside the room, thought it was how big, walaowei, the place like so small like that. wtf! haha. but nevermind, everyone was getting excited and hyper. took picture and look for the cam. everyone wants to appear on tv. haha. wth. jump here jump there, dance and shout. wow, it was super fun. to me, the best band for the night is fake eyelash! they are fucking awesome! well done guys, im fucking proud of you! weeeee!

took fucking lots of pics wit friends. so happy! but too bad, ira and sopfie havent upload yet. damn. upload fast leh! walaowei. hahah. okay, and not too forget, fahmi from pinholes carried me and took a picture with me! weeeeee! haha. happy x infinity. haha. the day was great and fun! i'll upload the pics soon okay. stay tuned nibblets!

stay true to yourself.

danny.

2009-03-23T15:31:00.002+08:00

tsk.

2009-03-23T15:07:00.003+08:00

animal testings? animal killings? animal abuse? animal torture? a big WTF to you motherfuckers! im done, i hate seeing, but i cant do anything. WHY? WHY MUST THIS HAPPEN? i just read iszwan's blog, about the sharks. i feel sad, angry, disappointed, disgusted, hate and wth. these shits has been going on and on around the fucking world.

Do you think that you're god? do you think that you're some kind of a big fuck? you motherfucker. you torture, abuse and kill animals for the sake of your own fucking self. not thinking about how they feel, how they suffer. fuck you. you kill them to satisfy your own fucking tongue. you turn them to food. fuck you.

think and fucking interprete. think and fucking put yourself in their fucking shoes. what if those sharks were your family members? i cut off their heads, hands, legs and every parts of the body. and then, throwing them after cutting them up. how would you feel? ive been talking about this shits over and over. nothing seems to make you people open your eyes. open your mind.

i think its time for us, for those who are against animal abuse, for those who thinks that animals too deserve to live, for those who loves animals to fucking take a stand. fucking fight for their rights. maybe we cant do much, but at least try. send the message to everyone. make them fucking realise. let's gather a group of people, and lets fucking destroy animal abusers, animal testers. fuck you.

i cant sit and watch, i just cant. lets take action. let us save them. please god, please i beg of you. to give me the fucking chance to save them. give me the chance to kill those who abuse them. please god, i beg of you. make them realise of their sins and bury them to the core of the earth where their body can rot and burnt to pieces.

keep positive, be positive.

bloop.

2009-03-19T12:33:00.003+08:00

to start off, im in school. okay, i just finished doing my test just now. and im pretty confident that i can pass. this year has been great for me. i think that im gonna pass this year. not only pass, but with flying colors. im so happy. i feel something changing in my life. i can smell success. haha.

okay, im ending class at 2. pretty early. this is like the last 2 days of school? and we're off to the march hols. happy. haha. i dont know what im going to do on my hols. maybe work? earn some extra income to at least support my aunt who has been supporting me since forever? maybe, i could just go find some random job.

hols is gonna be like 3 solid weeks? damn. too many things to do for this hols. bands and stuffs. ive never thought that i could go pretty far playing in a band. great. at least i have something i love doing now. its like a part of me. hee. im pretty bored now. in the lab. doing nothing else. blogging. haha.

after school, im meeting gf. looking forward to that. haha. im accompanying her to IMM as she wanted to buy this croissant at IMM that she has been craving for since the past 2 days? haha. cute sia. okay then, btw, im having a gig this sunday. do come down and support all the other bands. there are many great bands. till here, im off. later too much to blog. hahah. bye! sweet nibblets!

kebab.

2009-03-16T16:30:00.001+08:00

Like the stars in the sky,

I am calling to you.

From the heavens above,

I am looking for you.

In the depths of my soul,

I will live and breathe for you.

Sadness dwells inside you;

You have nothing to fear,

for I am next to you.

I can feel your sadness;

Let me be sad for you,

so you will feel love once again.

Worry not about life,

let me worry for you.

You should always love life,

for it is a part of you.

I'll be there when you fall,

to catch you and say I Love You.

purr.

2009-03-16T15:38:00.004+08:00

okay, i just came back from school. supposedly i end at 4 plus but i went home at around 1 cause im not feeling that well. yeah. my eyes was swollen, i had flu, body is aching like fuck(due to gig), septum hurts(due to extension) and heads a little giddy. haha. aunt wanted to send me to the doctor but, i refused. i dont want la. im sure i'll be okay by tomorrow. hopefully. i wanna meet gf.

didnt meet gf today. she went out with her mum and aunt and sis. so yeah, im at home. sitting infront of lappy thinking about what shes doing now. im bored, sick and tired. wth. walked under the rain yesterday. and even today. no wonder i fell sick. darn. who cares. im already sick now. cant do anything much. just sit home and relax.

saturday's gig was awesome. it was great. all the bands were great. yeah. i had alot of fun. you can see for yourself from the picture above. haha. excited right? hahah. thanks ira and sophie for snapping those awesome pics for everyone. sayang korang! haha. korang la photographer mauts. haha. thanks to everyone for being there. thanks for the support and everything.

i was so delighted when i meet everyone. you know, ive been MIA for quite a long time. and i was like so super duper happy when i see everyone. i was like hugging all the guys and kissing their cheeks. sounds so gay right? who cares. at least i know im straight. thats how much i missed everyone la. the whole point of going to gigs is to meet up all your friends and have fun together. i love my friends.

after the gig, went to woodlands, civic center. as usual, lepaks rabak with faiz, my brothers and mussy. haha. whenever im with them, im surely gonna crack my head. laugh like nobody's business. haha. always do stupid things. haha. talk about our lives and shits. yeah and random stuffs la. definitely. they always cheer me up. haha. chit chat chit chat. and at around 4 we went home. by cab? so pathetic sia faiz. walk so near to my house already then take cab. haha. nvm. janji free sudah. haha.

okay then, till here. see you people, bloggers, animal abusers, posers, motherfuckers, bitches, friends, bestfriends soon. haha. bye bye and take care.

torture.

2009-03-13T11:59:00.002+08:00

IN SILENCE THEY SUFFER,

IN LONELINESS THEY DIE.

FUCK ANIMAL TESTING!

YOU MOTHERFUCKERS!

lost.

2009-03-13T11:14:00.004+08:00

i realised that i did alot of shits in the past. alot of bad things. and i didnt even realised that ive hurt my friends. in the past, many shits happened around me. i lost my friends because of my stupid and fucked up habits and attitude. why? its all in the past now. ive truly regretted of what ive been and done.

last time, i used to pop pills, alcohol, drugs, shits and everything. i always get myself wasted. just because i want to pleasure myself. whats the fucking point? i realised that ive wasted my fucking life on this shits. i even lost a friend. a very good friend to me. because of me, my stupid habits, i lost my friend. he hates me of what ive done.

i should have listened to him. i should have. to stay off drugs, stay off alcohol and everything. he's always telling me the right stuffs and yet, i ignored and always think of myself. ive truly regretted of what ive done. im serious. i dont wanna lose anymore of my friends. ive changed, and im trying. no more drugs, no more alcohol. im controlling myself.

i'll do whatever it takes to help me stay of these junks, these shits. they ruined my fucking life. they ruined my friendship. i saw him yesterday, in the bus with his girlfriend. he didnt even smiled at me. i guess, my behaviour left an impact on him. he doesnt talk to me anymore. i really missed the old times pal. i now realised how ive been in the past. i hope you could see my post, read it.

this is how i feel, ive changed and im not the fahmi whom you used to know. im not that junkie anymore. im now a normal guy who wants you to be his friend again. who wants to hangout together again like last time, to go gigs together. to go shopping and laugh at people whenever they do silly stuffs. i still remember our times together. i still have those pics of ours.

im sorry dude. im sorry farza for what ive done. im sorry for being a bad friend, ive regretted and i hope that we could be friends again. im really sorry, im sincere and i mean what i say. i hope that you could forgive me and forget all the past that we've been through. im sorry friend but i missed you like hell. i promise that i'll make it up to you. see you soon man.

farza.

eat.

2009-03-12T10:32:00.004+08:00

im disgusted, despised, frustrated and angry. i see alot of things, commotions and shits happenning around me. more over, adding to the economic crisis. this city of ours has become a place where ego maniacs, hypocrites and mother fuckers lurking around terrorizing peoples lives and reputation. what the fuck?

last week, i read this new paper article about this celebrity, dawn yang. a sweet looking, innocent yet good looking girl whose name is being destroyed and crushed because of a group of mother fuckers who has got no life of their own but terrorizing and bringing down other peoples reputation. what is her fault?

these people made up stories, stupid and untrue stories about this girl. a girl who is innocent. it always amazes me, why must people tried to bring others down whenever one is already famous? instead, you should be better than the others not bring others down by ruining their lives and reoutation. you dont even realise that youre not that fucking good.

do you fucking think its fucking funny? well i dont. you people make up stories, distort her pictures and post it all over the net. what do you think if others do the same but towards your family? how would you animals think and feel? im sure you will be ashamed, embarassed angry and sad. thats how she feels.

has she ever done anything wrong towards you guys? you guys are just scum bags. you hit on someone through words, why dont you stop talking shits about others? i feel sorry for people like these. dawn yang is an innocent person, who leads the same and simple life like us. everyone wants to be happy. im sick and tired. you people despised me. you are just digusting.

just leave others alone, lead your own miserable lives. no point criticising and making up shits about others when you yourself needs a total makeover mother fucker. i cant help it looking at these kinds of people. be concerned about your own lives. before you react, why dont you put yourself in the person's shoes damn it.

till here, shut your mouth, stop talking shits. you people are a disgust to the fucking community.

kiss.

2009-03-11T21:10:00.001+08:00

And though I have kissed her
A thousand times a day
I would want to make it millions
And continuous without delay
But she can only smile
Because each kiss is of the heart
And she knows that the kiss is endless
It was this way from the start
But in each little touch
The lips desire more
But what else would they desire
When each is unlike before
And within the deep embrace
The warmth is felt abound
And she must forever feel this
Even when I am not around
For distance is not a problem
Or something to cause a pain
For she knows the next kiss is coming
Again and again and again

run with me juliet.

rain.

2009-03-11T20:11:00.003+08:00

its been a while since i blogged. yeah. its been like dont know how many days or maybe weeks? haha. okay. wth. today was great. everything was great. school was kinda great. almost finish on my project. im excited. hee. yay! haha. its going to be done soon. ive been attending classes everyday. weee! haha.

okay, school started as early as 8? reached school at around 830 to 9? haha. thats the usual timing that i'll reach school. wtf. always late. but at least i made an effort to go to school and finish my project. darn. haha. okay, after school went to meet gf. hehe. that has been my everyday routine. and we've been great. everything went smoothly. weee!

we went to buy slippers from ripcurl. very nice! haha. got green color sia my one. favourite colour! weee! unfortunately, gf "forgot" to bring her posb card. and she has not enough money to buy. damn. anyways, i bought it first. too bad baby. scared later my one people buy. haha. nehmind, tomorrow can go buy. next time, just dont "FORGET" to bring your stuffs okay? haha.

went home ard 5 plus? haha. sent her home and i reached marsiling at ard 6 plus? damn. the rain was like fucking heavy and the weather was like friggin cold? damn it. was super cold. was shivering all over. walked in the rain, konon nye esai uh. my whole shirt, pants, shoes and what so ever was so bloody wet. soggy sia. haha.

reached home, straight away to the toilet. shower then eat, msg gf and thats all. the worst part is that i kept sneezing and sneezing like wtf? feeling very "sneezy" right now. got such word? i dont think so. hahah. ate medicine and thats about it. now i'm blogging. cool right? hahah. okay, thats all peeps. i miss everyone of my friends. meet you guys pretty soon okay? sorry guys. till here, sayonara! haha.

GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR GIG RAGDOLL EPILOGUE!

rant.

2009-03-11T20:02:00.001+08:00

YOU MOTHER FUCKING SCUMBAGS!

missy.

2009-03-10T12:00:00.002+08:00

to kiss your lips every night,
to hold you close everytime,
never let go i'll make you mine,
to be with you is what i want.

i love girlfriend.

wee.

2009-03-08T21:31:00.000+08:00

I LOVE YOU SO THE VERY MUCH!

kill.

2009-03-05T11:45:00.002+08:00

okay, this post is about this video which i saw at a friends blog. a video about a group of motherfucking people who did experiments on poor and innocent monkeys. i cant understand why they do such acts. why the fuck must they do that? these are heartless freaks who could only think of their poor and stupid lives.

fuck them. these acts should be stopped. these people should be killed. these people should be torured like how they tortured those poor animals. why do they do such stupid things? people, open your eyes. think and interprete. what if those animals were your children? how would you feel you motherfuckers?

these people must be stopped. i cant stand to see these acts happening around world. someone, who sees this happening, please stop them. these animals has the rights to live. just like us, they deserve to be happy. why must you prey on poor animals? go find someone your own size. damn it. im just bloody pissed seeing that video. seeing animals being abused.

i wish i could do something, i wish i could. god, give me the pleasure, the honour to let me be there and beat the hell outta these people. let me punish them, let me torture them and make them suffer. putting them through what they did to the animals. they dont deserve to live. fuck them. doing what they do is simply making people hate them. theyre just cowards.

thanks to rara for posting up that video. if you hadnt post that video, i wouldnt have known the cruel side of human beings. motherfuckers. to these kind of people, whoever you are, wherever you live, in singapore or other countries, i hope that when you die, your body rots in hell. may god bless your soul motherfuckers.

kiss.

2009-03-03T10:48:00.004+08:00

My kind of music,

My favorite song,
I want to be with you

All day & all night long...

A spring breeze,

A summer sun,

Now that I know you

You are my one...

A winter sparkle,

An autumn tree,

Added all up

It equals you & me...

My best friend,

My only lover,

From here on out

I'll keep you forever...

A good laugh,

With some happy tears,

You're the one I go to

Through all the coming years...

When it rains it rains,

When it snows it snows,

I wrote this specially for you

& you're the only one who knows...

You keep me warm,

When I'm so cold,

As if my heart were for sale

To you it was sold...

Whether playing our favorite games,

Or to music we sing & listen,

When it comes to you
There's just no competition...

Not the best cut diamonds,

Or the reddest rose,

Could ever amount to

When you hold me close...

& when everything is said & done,
The night is over & we've had our fun,

Out of all the girls I choose just one,

The best one of all & that's you Hun.

grr.

2009-03-02T20:28:00.002+08:00

hello. okay, i just came back. from school that is. so late right. thats just because i went to lepak with faris, fad and din at boon keng. haha. and i just cut my hair. haha. sorry faris, i didnt cut botak. too bad. haha. school was great today. everything was okay. im almost done on my robotic project thingy. yay! at last, i finally feel that im achieving something.

last week went out with old friends. haha. shifu! was great. i missed hanging out with them alot la. we celebrated haiqal's birthday. haha. went to town and everything. walk here, walk there. haha. baik pe. haha. okay great. had alot of fun. at night, went to lepak at supreme court. lepak rabak. the rest drank. drunk like what sia. i didnt drink okay. now relax already. good boy. haha.

well, i miss UOB. i miss evryone at UOB. haha. long time no see. like what ajie said, 2 fucking weeks ive not been seeing them. busy. this sat, gigs. but im not going. soending my time with gf. cause ive not been spending quality time with her for some time. sorry again guys for not meeting you guys again. i promise i'll meet you guys soon. thats a total of 3 weeks not meeting you guys again. sorry guys.

okay, i just cant wait for this saturday. going sentosa with gf. i hope i'll make her happy the entire day. i want her to remember that day. hee. we're gonna spend some quality time together. yay! i love you honey!

okay then, till here guys. see you guys soon okay. take care dont take drugs.

yay.

2009-02-27T13:57:00.003+08:00

i think that my life is getting back on track. everything seems to be going so smoothly. family, friends, school and everything else. yeah. im happy. i'm done with sitting around doing nothing. i think that its time for a change. life is getting better. everythings good. i've been going to school everyday. teachers has been good to me. they have been complimenting me on my attendance and everything. i have not been sleeping in class. i have been doing my work, listening to what the teachers have to say. yeah. teachers said that ive made a great improvement to myself and im happy. haha. when the teachers are good, you feel like going to school everyday. yay!

my relationship with my family has been good. we're closer than ever. communications good. yay again! everythings just great now. though sometimes i get into trouble such as going home late and asking for more pocket money? haha. overall, im happy now. im great. im cool. haha. friends has been great too. they have been making me smile every single time i meet them. haha. its just a one hell of a ride whenever im with them. im always laughing my ass off with them. haha. okay. happy x infinity can? yay! haha.

everythings just working out the way i want it to. life wouldnt be great if you didnt work your ass off to earn it man. i seriously think that i've been wasting my time before. im not getting any younger. and my life isn't getting any longer too. i can go anytime. thats just the way it is. better make the best of your life while you can. wasting your time is just not the right shit to do man. i've regretted and ive made a decision. that is to change, to be a better person. i dont wanna go sweep leaves at the roadside when i grow up. though its not that bad at all. hahah. i wanna do something, i wanna achieve something. i dont wanna be a failure in life.

to study hard, to do my best. although i always say that i cant do it. hahah. always think of the bright side, always think out of the box. thanks to honey. life wouldnt be so bad after all. its up to us to decide our life. up to us to decide how we want it to be. a failure or an achiever? you dont expect to be a successful person in a blink of an eye do you? just take it slow. im taking it pretty slow. slow and steady wins the race. to my friends, its sad whenever i hear you guys say that you have no life. please, you guys do have a life. work on it. never give up. lets start to make a change and make our lives better aite? i want everyone of us to succeed. yay!

till here then, this is what ive decided, this is what ive planned. its up to us to make it happen. let's all pray that we succeed in life. dont care what people have to say. we can be bad, we can be naughty, but at least we have a life of our own. not just a life, but a good life! yay again! haha. see you guys soon ma fuckers. i love you all!

you.

2009-02-26T20:16:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BESTFRIEND!

hey lovely. i wanna wish you a happy birthday. you're all grown up now. weee! but still, not legal yet. haha. nehmind. be patient. haha. now that you're getting older, you're getting more matured. you can think well. you know whats right and whats wrong. but you always do la. ha. we have been friends for so long. i hope this friendship with you lasts longer than ever. biar masuk world record. LOL.

bestfriend, study hard okay? dont disappoint me, your parents and friends. i know that you're smart and clever. i know you can do it. put in all your effort. just try your best laaa! haha. you know that i care for you. you know that i love you. and i dont wanna see you fail and upset. you're the greatest. do me proud baby.

okay, till here la. keep on smiling. stay sweet and cute. haha. sorry present blm beli uh baby. nanti dah beli i give la. haha. be patient. i will get you something nice. i promise! once again, a happy birthday! whatever it is, i will always be there for you. i love you bestfriend!

rage.

2009-02-26T11:20:00.002+08:00

im just sick, im just tired. standing here, doing nothing. keeping quiet and watching, listening to what they say. fuck you. find a fucking dog and go fuck. it pisses me off, when people tells me what is good for my fucking life when they themselves has no fucking life other than telling people of theirs.go get a fucking life you son of a bitch.

i will, i will just sit around and listen. i'll wait, i'll wait for the time. only time will tell. you tell people whats good and whats not, whats right and whats wrong. who the fuck do you think you are? these kind of people dont deserve to smile, dont deserve to laugh. i am controlling myself, from violence and rage. but i just cant stand listening to what they say.

if its a fucking fight you want, then you got your fight. you think youre so tough? show me your fucking guts, say it to my face. people like these. are scumbags. you think you got guts, come on. bring it on to me motherfucker. i dont care who you are, how big you are, how old you are, just give me your fucking best shot.

dont ever interfere, dont ever come across and dont ever spit your shits around. im not referring to anyone. i keep hearing shits about what people say. no one has the rights to tell us what to do, except our parents. remember that. if you see or hear this kinda shit happening, go give them a peace pf their mind. dont be scared. its your life, its your choice.

till here then, fuck what you say, and fuck whats not.